I needed to run today.
I'm not going to have time to run tomorrow, and although I've got a run planned with a friend on Saturday, that leaves me with only four runs for the whole week, two of which were already only two miles.
So although I have a LOT to do, and am stressed out about doing it (and maybe because of that), I needed to run.
I headed out, planning to run about 2 1/2 miles. As soon as I started, I was sore, my back hurt, my legs hurt, my knee hurt, I felt like it was humid and I could just feel the exhaustion set it. So I basically gave up. I told myself I'd only run a mile instead of the 2 1/2 I had planned.
Now, granted, I did run FAST today (fast for me, that is). I ran 1.01 miles in 10:06, which is a 10:02 pace. I haven't run that fast in two years. But I didn't pace myself better to start with, which made me feel more tired more quickly and I gave up.
My lesson for today for myself is that everyone has bad days and bad runs. At least I went out there for those ten minutes instead of skipping the run altogether. I also need to remember that two years ago, this was right when I lost focus and started to give up - started to hate to run. I don't want that to happen again, so if I needed to give myself a break today rather than push myself too hard, I guess that's okay.
I'll be back with a vengeance next week.